Anxiety · closure · Love · Positivity · power · Strength · Uncategorized

Be The Change; Be The Love

What can life’s let downs teach us? What is the major lesson they hold so tightly within themselves? Let downs can break your heart. Betrayal can tear your belief system apart. The ripple effect is usually hope broken, faith trampled on, any commitment is now feared. We grow more comforted by lack of empathy than actually absorbing the anxiety that is at hand. The empty dark emotional part of our soul that is just begging for attention. When ignored our mind translates our actions into a lonliness angst that haunts our every move. It is almost like a rain cloud that continues to pour the rain of tears that we fear the most. Snap out of it darling…here is the tough love at hand. It was also your fault. It is your fault that you faced something. You committed to something and it was a bad investment. Now it is your responsibility to face the fear of the next commitment and realize the anxiety you feel is so beautiful. The most amazing creations come out of darkness. Identify the depth and the unknown. Use your purpose. Use your story to pull you up. The next time you are let down it will not be unfamiliar. It will not be unknown. It will be more growth that you will embrace and use all the more. We are not rare breeds. Our stories are not made of rare principles. We have basic needs and when they are unmet you have two choices. You can be the change you want to see in your situation or you can live to pay the same letdown forward and bring someone else to your level of hurt because your misery needs company. The greatest advice that is lived is being the change. It is holding on to the hope you originally had and never giving up on it even when you have to love in silence. If you truly loved unconditionally you love even when you feel disapproval. You love through others naysayers and hatred. Fear and hope are equally powerful emotions that derive from your decisions. Choose wisely and ride the waves of time.

 

Love · parenting · Positivity · Strength

Step-Dad is a title of a True Man…No It’s a title of a Champion!

A stepfather can come in many different shapes and sizes. This man has to not only walk the path of fatherhood for a child that is not his own but watch the woman he endears to bear the guilt of choosing a male figure that has no heart to be true to his word and commitment. A stepfather will hear many times through the toughest parenting moments that they aren’t the father. They will be reminded of it many more times than that. This man will have to hold his tongue when the child’s actual father swoops in and poses that he is a man worthy of the cause. This man will be called by the child’s last name instead of his own by teachers, coaches, and friends. Mr. that father is not present because he is no man. I believe we should call this man Mr. Champion. That is what we should call these men that fill the shoes of a delinquent father that simply changed his mind and turned his back on his creation. These men should not be called stepfathers…they should be called champion fathers. They pick up the pieces when the mother no longer can. They appease her guilt by giving her child a strong male role. They take the child that they had no involvement in creating. They love that child as if he or she is there own and leave no question to his love by showing compassion, truth, and justice for the family. He prevails over all accusations and conspiracy theories thrown his way. He fights for what is right and even when knocked down he gets back up to fight again. This is a true warrior that holds to his commitment. This man is a champion.

Thank you to my darling, my champion. He holds my broken heart and warms every piece of it. I am a very blessed woman to have found my champion at the most fragile time in my life. :*

Justice · parenting · Positivity · Strength · Uncategorized

What about the journey?

 

What about your journey when you look back on everything you have trampled over and trudged through?? What about the parts of the journey where you almost gave up? That journey up until this moment that leave you in nostalgia for just a couple more feelers. We don’t wish for sanity in every moment because that would just be boredom. We shouldn’t wish for comfort because that just means we aren’t moving. Life flashes before our eyes so fast it is easy to lose sight of how beautiful the journey is and all the minor details that are overlooked by others because its none of their own. Anyone can’t point fingers to judge to one moment that they believe was a wrong move but guess what….they wouldn’t have made as wise of a decision as you have because you are a fearless contagious bountiful spirit that will not quit standing for what is right for fear that someone that believes themselves to be any less strong will give up and feel inadequate. You don’t waste your time pointing out others flaws because you value the complexity of the fearless powerful life you live. The toxic pointers will find their way pointing at someone else and you will quietly slip by as you build your empire on a foundation of truth, justice, and unconditional love. Those that find you intimidating will join forces on one side or the other. It is not something we should waste any breaths on beyond the needed venting. It is not a power we earn in life… it is a power we naturally have and to only use when the odds are claimed to be against us.  What a breath of fresh air is today as you might be getting through a tough time as we all have.  :*

Anxiety · Positivity · Strength · Suicide

How to Get back up…

Do you have a bandaid?? I scraped my entire face when I fell for you.
How does one recover when you spend so much time working to fall in love with someone yet everything you feared becomes truth? How do you get back up and trust again? How do you open up to someone that seems so easy and trust worthy? After all isn’t love suppose to be difficult…isn’t that why marriages are only 50% success rate? You have to be tough to not give up. You have to be strong to keep bearing the doubt and gut feeling that something is wrong.
How strong do you have to be when your gut isn’t battling you anymore? You have to be even stronger my darling. There is something about our minds when something is easy it becomes all the more difficult to focus on it. It is streamlined. It is seamless. It is in all actuality real yet too true to be believed. Its as if we prefer that drama. Our minds must prefer the negative. Our minds always prefer the make believe with the unicorns and the purple people eaters that really wouldn’t actually eat the people. In the midst of the negative streamline we try our best to wish for the positive yet the world always finds a reason to feed us some bullshit sandwich of reason to lose belief in the very existence  of peace and tranquility.
Separate yourself for two moments just trust these moments that you are thinking about doing it so you mise well make this happen. Free yourself from the habits your mind has grasped and escape into a land where nothing happens to you but only because of you. This is the freedom you yearn for…it is within those moments. The very power you give everyone around you and the things you will never control around you is the very power within yourself. Change your focus to the version of life where everything that matters in your life becomes a joking matter. Why should life be taken so seriously…so seriously that our children contemplate taking their own life in the purist easiest form to relive themselves from the pressures that life has built for them. Escape your mind now with one breath at a time….sit for two quiet moments hell take three… its like a cleanse when things slow down….it is the breath of freedom when everything has logic and it is an addicting progression when your mind can find peace in the most chaotic moments. Take your moments…understand you are only human and the emotions you feel that remind you of defeat and many refer to as anxiety once mastered and not feared any longer will become the very peace you deserve.

Anxiety · Positivity · Strength · Suicide

May This Kind of 4th NOT Be With You

One year ago today I was sitting on a cliff sipping/chugging a bottle of Prosecco cheers’n to all the lives that I would stop inflicting….MAY THAT KIND OF FOURTH NOT BE WITH YOU. It was actually on May 3rd but by May 4th I was in the hospital for stress reduction. No phone, all doctors, other stress induced individuals that were mostly repeat visitors….at least I know how to keep my cool because though it felt like jail…it wasn’t the worst all of us crazies can come to experience. 😀 HA!

Me…..Airplane Rock in Hocking Hills, OH…. a bottle of LaMarca Prosecco…..a peaceful resolution.

My life had reached its ultimate limit. My life had reached its peak. My emotions had found its ultimate peace. No one knows this moment like someone who has stood on the edge expecting to jump or whatever way that they had decided to find their peace. This isn’t a bad moment….this isn’t something we don’t look forward to. These are the pristine moments with no vision beyond our own and the pain we see we have inflicted on others. We don’t want to inconvenience anyone anymore. We feel too much. We can’t handle the bolder on our back any longer of resentment that we feel when we look into the mirror.

SNAP OUT OF IT!

I am so happy and give gratitude every day to the couple from Cincinnati that interrupted my elaborate plan to find peace. I was so angry that they found me in this moment after all it Tuesday afternoon in a place barely anyone besides the locals. I had driven 2 hours to my place of peace…why wouldn’t they leave me alone? Again I thank them EVERY DAY and send many positive vibes their way with every thought. I wish i could remember their names….I wish I could reach out to them and thank them over and over again!

LISTEN TO ME anyone who feels like their humanity outweighs their beauty…humanity is exactly what creates your beauty darling!

You can pull through and grow so much stronger from all of this emotion you have within you. You are just focusing on the wrong logical facts that surround everyone that feels and cares. I was making a horrendous mistake with my focus at that time. I had I let my brain create as an escape into a force that is beyond our control once you let go or let others cut the string to that kite. This is not your horrendous mistake to make either my dear!!! You are stronger than you realize because you are only doubting yourself. You are much wiser than you give yourself credit for because you feel you care too much. Think about it your peace is found in relieving those in your lives of the pain you feel only you have caused. Honey we all cause ripple effects in our lives. They are not always the right ones but believe me if you are causing ripple effects the anxiety you feel is BREAK THROUGH! It is like leveling up in a video game. Is it easy to overcome the big green goblin at the end? No!!! but your damn straight it is so much fun after you put the work in to get to the next level. We all have issues. We all have our own turmoil. You can get through anything you remind yourself that you are strong enough to get through.

No one has problems any bigger or worse than another. They are all the same principle problems with all of the different nasty grotesque methods that exist in this world. Don’t get caught up in the methods….focus on the principle. The desire for love, the desire for support, and the biggest of all the desire for TRUTH. Be ready for the truth that is not always what we want to hear but once fearlessly faced….the payoff and wisdom gained is amazing.
You are not the issue. You need to cleanse the toxicity from that amazing mind of yours and be proud that you feel and care. You truly are so beautiful. Don’t question me because I know you have spirit for the simple fact that you are still reading these words of positive enforcement. FOCUS! Once you embrace that you are human and there is nothing wrong with your anxiety you will level into the very PEACE you are searching for. The very FREEDOM you yearn for. The very CONFIDENCE you deserve!

May the Fourth be with you this year and by fourth I mean the force of an open mind and a hearty spirit that proves to you your strength that you are hiding from yourself. Take the time to tweak that mind of yours to focus and open up and you will change your world one percent at a time.  Check out this guy…there are so many different mentors you can find that can give you the same story as mind. Life was pushing them to give up and they looked it back in the face and said…F*% Off!

Invest in yourself! If you want the hard working results you have to work hard to get them!
Lets go get your healthy life together, you deserve it!! 😀
Kyani Praiser, Not So Single Mom Anymore, Yogi, Gratitude Junkie, Wellness Coach, Fitness Enthusiast, Car Sales Lady, Social Media Capitalist, Communication Specialist, Time Hustler, Absolutely undeservingly blessed and so grateful for the best circle of relationships!