One year ago today I was sitting on a cliff sipping/chugging a bottle of Prosecco cheers’n to all the lives that I would stop inflicting….MAY THAT KIND OF FOURTH NOT BE WITH YOU. It was actually on May 3rd but by May 4th I was in the hospital for stress reduction. No phone, all doctors, other stress induced individuals that were mostly repeat visitors….at least I know how to keep my cool because though it felt like jail…it wasn’t the worst all of us crazies can come to experience. 😀 HA!
Me…..Airplane Rock in Hocking Hills, OH…. a bottle of LaMarca Prosecco…..a peaceful resolution.
My life had reached its ultimate limit. My life had reached its peak. My emotions had found its ultimate peace. No one knows this moment like someone who has stood on the edge expecting to jump or whatever way that they had decided to find their peace. This isn’t a bad moment….this isn’t something we don’t look forward to. These are the pristine moments with no vision beyond our own and the pain we see we have inflicted on others. We don’t want to inconvenience anyone anymore. We feel too much. We can’t handle the bolder on our back any longer of resentment that we feel when we look into the mirror.
SNAP OUT OF IT!
I am so happy and give gratitude every day to the couple from Cincinnati that interrupted my elaborate plan to find peace. I was so angry that they found me in this moment after all it Tuesday afternoon in a place barely anyone besides the locals. I had driven 2 hours to my place of peace…why wouldn’t they leave me alone? Again I thank them EVERY DAY and send many positive vibes their way with every thought. I wish i could remember their names….I wish I could reach out to them and thank them over and over again!
LISTEN TO ME anyone who feels like their humanity outweighs their beauty…humanity is exactly what creates your beauty darling!
You can pull through and grow so much stronger from all of this emotion you have within you. You are just focusing on the wrong logical facts that surround everyone that feels and cares. I was making a horrendous mistake with my focus at that time. I had I let my brain create as an escape into a force that is beyond our control once you let go or let others cut the string to that kite. This is not your horrendous mistake to make either my dear!!! You are stronger than you realize because you are only doubting yourself. You are much wiser than you give yourself credit for because you feel you care too much. Think about it your peace is found in relieving those in your lives of the pain you feel only you have caused. Honey we all cause ripple effects in our lives. They are not always the right ones but believe me if you are causing ripple effects the anxiety you feel is BREAK THROUGH! It is like leveling up in a video game. Is it easy to overcome the big green goblin at the end? No!!! but your damn straight it is so much fun after you put the work in to get to the next level. We all have issues. We all have our own turmoil. You can get through anything you remind yourself that you are strong enough to get through.
No one has problems any bigger or worse than another. They are all the same principle problems with all of the different nasty grotesque methods that exist in this world. Don’t get caught up in the methods….focus on the principle. The desire for love, the desire for support, and the biggest of all the desire for TRUTH. Be ready for the truth that is not always what we want to hear but once fearlessly faced….the payoff and wisdom gained is amazing.
You are not the issue. You need to cleanse the toxicity from that amazing mind of yours and be proud that you feel and care. You truly are so beautiful. Don’t question me because I know you have spirit for the simple fact that you are still reading these words of positive enforcement. FOCUS! Once you embrace that you are human and there is nothing wrong with your anxiety you will level into the very PEACE you are searching for. The very FREEDOM you yearn for. The very CONFIDENCE you deserve!
May the Fourth be with you this year and by fourth I mean the force of an open mind and a hearty spirit that proves to you your strength that you are hiding from yourself. Take the time to tweak that mind of yours to focus and open up and you will change your world one percent at a time. Check out this guy…there are so many different mentors you can find that can give you the same story as mind. Life was pushing them to give up and they looked it back in the face and said…F*% Off!
Invest in yourself! If you want the hard working results you have to work hard to get them!
Lets go get your healthy life together, you deserve it!! 😀
Kyani Praiser, Not So Single Mom Anymore, Yogi, Gratitude Junkie, Wellness Coach, Fitness Enthusiast, Car Sales Lady, Social Media Capitalist, Communication Specialist, Time Hustler, Absolutely undeservingly blessed and so grateful for the best circle of relationships!